Sunday, November 24, 2013

Night, Moonlight, the Contented Solitude of A Kid Undone



Some nights I sit
I wonder, with awe
Who is the man
Who thinks these thoughts?

Am I the boy
From so long ago
Still that same kid
A young man stretched
By time.

Whats easier
To write a poem
Or what you think?
Are the two 
Synonymous?

The kid, eh, hes gone
I'm a man, now.
Manhood means
Knowledge. 

Knowledge means
more information
Is this a good thing?
Of course, we say

But what of the simple man
What of the simple boy?
Who knew nothing but love

There was no desire above and beyond
Just the love of neighbor
And self.
Doing happy things
Thinking happy thoughts

You can still be a kid today
As Nike would say
"Just do it."





Monday, September 2, 2013

Tick Tock Goes the Clock


Man dreams of a future
A future filled with fun
A future where work doesn't rule
A future with creativity abound
Imaginary animals, imaginary landscapes

Yet why does he dream of the future
When he has the now
A now so filled with possiblities, happiness and love
How could the man be bored
A focus on finite futility in the fourth dimension

The future, a dream, aha!
What will it bring, who will it bring, ,where will it bring?!
I'll tell you what it will bring
Said another man
Who was the man?
Grim reaper.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Short Stories, Poems, and the Fiction of my Mind


Inspiration for the words below (Daniil Kharms, Russian writer)

Baby

              There once was a baby. He was 8 years old. Or was he 40, or perhaps 64? Why am I asking you, reader? Maybe I am asking you because not even I am sure of the answer. This young man thought he knew more than the younger man, but he did not. He sought the answer to life in this thing and that, but ignored the sage advice of the youngest man, the baby. The baby was wise but did not know he was wise, cocooned in the innocence of a lack of desire.
              The oldest man looked into the mirror and saw the trials of his life reflected in the wrinkles of his skin, wrinkles that reflected the moments when the man put the less fortunate to work for his own gain. Little did the man know that the baby was looking back through the mirror at the reflection of a broken man, defeated by the trials of time and by a loss of innocence.
              When the baby took his first steps, the baby thought to himself, “Life is beautiful, life is good”, and all he needed to be happy was the biscuit laying on a table in his family’s home. Yet when the man took his 124,728,200th step, he knew nothing of his 1st step, though each step was taken with the same leg. And the man thought to himself, “Life is money, money is good,” and all he needed to be happy he couldn’t have. He had forgotten what it was like to feel good.
               And suddenly, the baby was born into the world, with no idea what his future self held. And suddenly, the baby died at 64, innocence dying off as well, with no idea what his past self knew. The baby had lived and died, the man had lived and died, but they shared little in common experience despite living the same life. Little did the man know that he and the baby were the same person. Their faces were different, but only because of the wrinkles. The baby tried to get through to the man, but the man was blind to the past, a monster created by the trials of time. This monster grew and grew until the man finally realized, “Aha! Life is good!” as the baby came into view on the side of the mirror, a reminder of what the man could live as.  After this moment, the man was no more. The man was the baby and the baby was the man, 64 minus 64 is 0. He ceased to exist.


Banana
Yellow crescent on the floor
Mushed like Jell-O into the tiles
Peel lackadaisically lying
Next to the stranded pile of nutrients
Earlier, flew in on from a factory
In the most distant corner of the world
The banana on a palette
Only an idea in the mind of the head of Chiquita
And then suddenly
Hemingway slipped on the pile that was once a fruit
The fall only an idea in a head of ideas
Until it happened
The result of an unfortunate series of events
That originated in a mind
Outside of this set of pages
Who has nothing to do with what has just been discussed
But made something new happen
A series of characters
Strung together like music
To create a new meaning
Hemingway slipping on a banana peel
Ha!
Ha!


Sausage Man
              There once was a sausage man, a man greater than his title, a man named Oliver, who had two children and a faithful, loving wife. Every day this man went to the park and enjoyed the sun. Or did the sun enjoy him? The sun feasted at his exposed skin, creating small patches of infected meat, the kind you see in cancer commercials. It was cancer. The man was over, but still laughed and joked. Death had come to the doorstep, but the man did not extend his hand. The grim reaper was no friend of his, and the man only loved as he was taught by his father, and his mother, and their father and mother, and so on and so on down the line of infinity, to the beginning of eternity. Love is contagious, and love is a gene, but most of all, love is a friend that extends her hand more merrily than death. Cupid defeated the grim reaper in a battle of the ages, and the man was happy despite the most intense of trials.
               This man toiled all day and all night, not unsettled by his lack of wages or his insufficient working conditions. Crack went the sound of the bat, the 10 million dollar man causing a sound so loud it could be heard round the world. How could a game so simple mean so much to a nation? Because it means so much, it causes just the littlest bit of pain to the sausage man, but he pays no heed to his toils. There is so much business in baseball that the sausage man is often forgotten, This man knows the end is in his future but decides to fall heedlessly to cupid, who caresses him gently as he falls towards his beautiful end. The sausage man makes sure he is remembered as a lover, not as a complainer, and brings joy to all those around him. Thank you, sausage man.


The Pen
1.      A letter was written to a one Mary Anigold Douglas of 547 Tooksbury Lane. She was a small lass, a woman with sass, but she did not outlast the pen.
2.      A draft was written of 100 pages for a dissertation in a rather bland corner of the world, let’s call it Dayton, Ohio. Dayton was a mundane town in a mundane place but the pen visited there too, its ink injecting itself onto paper like an overzealous virus.
3.      A book was written by that famous man Nikolai Gogol, that fellow who talked about a nose and some other bodily parts some 100 years ago. Those pages called on the pen for lots of ink, and the inkwell depleted as the pen did its duty.
4.      A less famous woman used the pen to write a 67 page journal documenting her pilgrimage to Mecca during the hajj of her Muslim faith. Her mind combined with the pen to create a beautiful recollection of a meaningful journey, a journey that began and ended with the pen, sandwiched between two bindings and numerous pages. The pen is the reason this recollection lives on.
5.      A slightly more famous man was born in 1 B.C., and 12 loyal followers paid heed to his story with the pen. The pen was not present then but the spirit of the pen was, and the ink flowed onto the pages for millions to see. The work done by the pen still shines on today, bound between two covers, living on despite the history of nations trying to destroy what the pen had created.
6. Across the waters in a small town on the Cliffside of Italy, a man used the pen to make a sign to tell his patrons that his shop was closed. The man returned home to his family and told them of his day, and reopened the shop on the next day with the same pen.
7. Across the universe on the planet Yuhassa Titanicus, a pen writes with no writer behind it, gliding across the pages like skis through powdery snow on a brisk winter day. If a pen can glide on a planet with no history and no inhabitants and no minds, why can’t it continue to glide today? Is it not gliding now?
8. Today, in fact, the pen still exerts its powerful influence, helping facilitate what has been created here today. It has created many moments – it created the moments above, and created this moment. Whatever this is called or means only you can decide, but that does not change the words that the pen has brought to these pages. 

Friday, May 10, 2013

Train of Thought, Thought of Train

This brain
That brain
Floating mesh above the rest
Giving life to all that breathes
Modulating, correcting, calculating
What can this behemoth not behold?
Many things, in fact
Don't forget your living and being in the world
You are not just a floating head
We are humans, connected
Breathing, sweating, grasping, bleeding
Communication within us, between us
Keeps us going
Keeps us real
Keeps the universe spinning
Because without us,
It would still spin
Or would it?
Do you ever stop to ask
That mighty night sky?
Or do you become too stuck in that train of thought
That ever dangerous thought of train
That shrieks louder than the steam engine
and moves faster than light?
Escape whatever that is inside
And live for you
Live for others
Live for life
Live to give back
and live to be thankful
With your head held high
Free from the train track
One with the freight of the universe
One with your neighbor
One with yourself
Give back the energy
That you are loved with
The world needs you
Because the world needs love.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

This Moment


Sometimes, it just feels as if your life has led up to one moment. This moment. The very time when all your past decisions line up perfectly to create the perfect storm of wonder, awe, and beauty.

This moment is one of those times. This moment explains all past hardships (pff...I haven't really faced hardship at all, who am I to talk?), explains all past happiness, explains why I am where I am today. It explains my parents, my family, my friends, and those close to me. This moment creates a feeling that will only be replicated a few other times in my life - the feeling of complete and utter joy and gratefulness for what I have been blessed with in this amazing life.

The time from my conception to now has been marked by an unimaginably large amount of forces beyond and within my control. Chaos and I are constantly creating a beautiful storm of nowness, a now that has contributed to this now, this special moment of being. Even though this moment is constantly moving and shifting its place, a piece of this moment intertwines itself with the past and the future. This moment is a never-ending tornado that rips time across boundaries, spreads time across infinite spatial bread like peanut butter.

Because this moment has shreds of the past and the future, I just want to express my complete and utter thanks for all the love that I have been shown throughout my life. I know love has been a common theme on this blog, but its truly what mostly inspires me to write. Sometimes, even when I am alone and sitting at my computer, in what seems like a meaningless moment, I can feel the meaning of life because I have felt and continue to feel the love of the incredible people that I inhabit this earth with.

So thank you, friends. Thank you, family. Thank you, nature. Thank you, world. Thank you, universe. But mostly, thank you, love. I know you're out there.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Creation

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating and recreating yourself.

Friday, April 6, 2012

The Mountain

Thick beige bumps bulging against the summer sky
Cascade off in avalanche as they whip against the wind
From the bottom of the mountain
A polluted river drips
Heavy drops falling with the beige
Red, glistening drops of blood
Paint the grass with life
At the base of the mountain, a round cushion remains
Sopped in a red-brown haze, the river's remains
Above this, a great brown tree
A piece of its trunk, sawed off in a round
Though brown, it crackles with blood fire
As hot as the sun, striped black from its burns
On top of the tree, a caressing canopy
A raincoat of yellow, seemingly left by a child
Thick and soothing, the yellow sits
Directing the rivers flow downward, feeding the grass
Atop the canopy, a dome
The very top of the mountain, the creme de la creme
The Superdome of nature
Without the dome, the mountain would lay incomplete
It presses against the canopy, causing it to sag
Its almost as if the mountain is sad.
Why sad, you say?
The mountain is uprooted from its stable position
Amid a white mecca of plastic snow
Grabbed by a fleshy human
Who simply wants to eat his Cheeseburger.